And I can feel myself slipping back into old.
And I can't do a damn thing about it.
I cried on the floor while Joe mumbled drunk ramblings about how I go about things wrong.
I cried as I woke up, thinking about the emptiness that somehow consumes me.
I cry now, as I think about how many times I said I was going to be okay.
Everyone has advice that they think will bring the miracle cure,
But the truth is, this is me.
This is who I am.
This is who I will always be.
The leaves have fallen from the trees,
And the sky is perpetually gray.
I lean against the wind,
Hugging my coat to me,
And I try to convince myself this isn't some sick metaphor for life... and the subtle eventuality of death.
I once had myself convinced.
But not anymore.
The gray sky and piercing wind are here to stay.